Thank the lord for call centers!! Eddie perfect is a lyrical genius and i refuse to believe that man is gay...noooooooooooooooooo

hypervhentilating
tremors and shakes
anxiety pumps through my veins

why cant i stop crying?
what is it that is so fucking bad?

im tired and im edgy

if i serve one more person that doesnt say thankyou
i swear ill slit them from ear to ear

why cant i stop crying?
what is it that is so fucking hopeless?
WHY AM I SO PATHETIC AND HELPLESS?

im tired and im edgy

please dont make me leave the house right now
please dont make me go

Suposed to be at the engagement an hour ago... still sitting here in my oh so sexy moo cow pijamas. I just wanted them to meet him, and seeing as my brother couldnt make it down i really see no problem in him replacing him. You would think so wouldnt you. "we have to be really strict on numbers, hope you understand"
WHAT THE FUK?! What is that?? Nice sibling....
How embarassing is it having to tell your partner they're not welcome at a family function, especially one so big?!
Im surprised he stays around... Its only gonna get worse!

Who'd of thunk it really?

Listening to: Cemetary Gates- Pantera

The time it has taken me to express my joy of being a deviant subscriber was so lengthy that i just got a little reminder telling me my time is almost up!!! oh how they like to dangle the carrot... what to do, what to do?!

Today i said bon voyage to my little strAngE for 2 whole months!!! ugh... miss her so much already . Im sitting in the cold at my friends house up the coast sucking ciggies and suffering a wine headache. Im up here awaiting the arrival of my beautiful god son Taj... With all the ugliness in the world at the moment im so thankful for little miracles like him... Cant wait to meet my little man!